under the light

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Sunday, November 29, 2009

i cant stand some of the people i know are.
actually.
i am shallow as well.
but takes one to know one ya.

i always had this group of friends..
would i call them friends actually?
hmm.
they're too different in character from me i think
it was only recently that i felt how different people can be in terms of tolerance and "heart".

i think shallowness, selfishness and materialistic characteristics are perfectly fine.
but then.
there's this bunch of pple i know that seem to have the disease of hard-heartedness.
they laugh ruthlessly and criticise without putting themselves in our shoes.
of cus we cant do that in eveyr situation, trying to understand people.
but there are definitely those where there's nothing to laugh about and comment yet they do.
i really feel they are ...
plus.
they rate others.
that's why i dislike talking around them.
because i have pride to.
rather strong one,
i don't like the poking they do.
sometimes i wish they could just shut up and be thankful for what they have.

there're a few friends that i am really worried about.
but i dont know what to do.
and. moreover its really uneasy for me to share some problems:(
because once i tell someone, whenever i see that someone it reminds me of the problem or unhappiness i once had, even though its over.
its like tainting the person i confide in.

how i wish i lived in a world of television scripts.:)
if my life could be just half that exciting and more importantly straightforward as in the shows.
正直言うと、わたしの人生これからどうなるか全然わからない。
全然自信が無い。いい生活できるんだなぁ？　
時々もうやだ、生きていること。
いつもわたしの人生のことしか考えない。やだやだ。このわがまま、めんどくさいこと。
大きい意味があるしごとをみつけれととても幸せなことだとおもってる。
でも　どうしょう　みつけられない。　今まで。

12:10 AM

Fi- Fi-. C
to find a day where from then on
i would never need to lie again.

i really love vanilla.
for its straightforwardness

.mushiness with reality.

Irreplacable , unerasable memories.
June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 July 2010 September 2010 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 November 2012