Thursday, May 29, 2008
today i had another day with kai...
before she leaves for France..
have a safe journey!!:) and enjoy your study there!!!
anyway there was this 5 minutes that we spoke about turning 20.
and reaching the end of teen youth and the beginning of adulthood.
she was quite true on the part about what is the scarey thing about growing "old"
then, i heard this song, and i realise the reason why i may be afraid of growing up.
other than the need to face responsibilities, expectations, maturity.
the most importantly is the way i am going to change as i grow a year older every time.
when i look back 10 yrs when i am 30.
what will run through my mind
so.
this is wat has changed.
how i wished i still had that part in me.
this is the set of lyrics that hit me:
-流浪记
我就这样告别山下的家
我实在不愿轻易让眼泪流下
我以为我并不差不会害怕
我就这样自己照顾自己长大
我不想因为现实把头低下
我以为我并不差能学会虚假
怎样才能够看穿面具里的谎话
别让我的真心散的像沙
如果有一天我变得更复杂还能不能唱出歌声里的pu yu ma
我就这样告别山下的家
我实在不愿轻易让眼泪流下
我以为我并不差不会害怕
我就这样自己照顾自己长大
我不想因为现实把头低下
我以为我并不差能学会虚假
怎样才能够看穿面具里的谎话
别让我的真心散的像沙
如果有一天我变得更复杂
还能不能唱出歌声里的那幅画
怎样才能够看穿面具里的谎话
别让我的真心散的像沙
如果有一天我变得更复杂还能不能唱出歌声里的pu yu ma~~
by 纪晓君 album:野火春风
some may not understand the emotions one can have listening to good music,
or just music with raw feelings.
if there's chance i would put this song on my blog.
for everyone to try listening to it just once. once is enough.
9:03 PM
Sunday, May 25, 2008
we all need someone that we can be absolutely selfish with don't we
because that is when i don't need to care mind or whatever.
of course i'll be there for that someone else to be selfish to.
i feel that is the most comfortable position of human relationship.
when we accept each other wholely and without expectations.
12:57 AM
Friday, May 23, 2008
I so totally think i have some kind of sleeping disorder
i practically sleep every where i go now
and when its time to sleep i pop up awake.
so gross.
11:50 PM
Sunday, May 18, 2008
omg
i totally feel like dying
there's this latest news that Nakamaru Yuuchi would be attending Waseda starting Fall 2008 for his enviromental chemistry degree.
oh my gg.
why dont they accept one sem students:(
ok never mind wateeverrrrrr
haha so gross.
i sound like a total hua chi.
whoo hoo!! i got a new passport made and i have a new passport number now.
kinda stupid i think having one passport and one ic no.
i mean
wat's the point.
china's earthquake was devastating i think
i dont even dare to look at the news.
the death toll alone is horrendous
not yet to add the missing persons.
the'golden' hours of 72 hrs i think have passed.
so i guess we can practically add the missing persons to death toll.
i have been thinking alot lately.
like
reaching this big 2 right.
what have i planned or what do i have installed for myself.
what do i want and what do i have currently.
i have totally become an old woman.
like i cant eveen stand shopping for more than 2 hours.
i just feel so tired and wanna die.
hurhur
afternoon naps too.
damn too much
haaha.
the result of staying at home too much.
yea.
but its comfortable staying at home ,
not needing to do anything and have everything at arm's length.
9:33 AM
Friday, May 16, 2008
KAT-TUN's new single Don't U Ever Stop was released on 14 May 2008:):)
the first day sale number: 104,864 copies.
full stop.
WHOOOOO HOOO!!!:):) yays!!!
beating the previous two singles Keep The Faith and LIPS (88,358 and 86,096 respectively)
OMG OMG money money
SHING SHING
i can hear the cash registers go TING TING
$$$$$
:):):):)
only if i could come out with a product to sell that many..
oh my gg
2:01 AM
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
i watched a short portion /preview of Nishikido Ryo's new drama Last Friends which started airing on 10 April.
one of the female leads is the lead of Nodame Cantabile with her hair cut really really short.
the story is supposed to be about the troubles of love life of the younger generation now,
the possible domestic violence that occurs behind closed doors.
the mere preview and a 'mistake' of me watching a mere few minutes of one episodes,
was enough to stop me from watching.
it looked really sad, and creepy.
the sad is not the type of 'One litre of Tears'
but a overwhelming chilling feeling.
Nishikido Ryo in 'One Litre of Tears' was the boy who loved the lead actress so much despite of her incurable disease.
but.
in Last Friend(s) Nishikido Ryo plays the boyfriend who loved his girlfriend (one of the female leads) and initiated the co-habitation with her. Then, an over-friendly sms from fellow female friend (nodame cantabile's lead actress), led him to misunderstand his girlfriend.
Then, due to the jealousy ignited, too much love, over-possessiveness,
he snapped and the violence started.
When i watch that one episode because the 'screen capture'of that particular episode had Nishikido Ryo, then after i saw the one scene with him inside with out knowing the plot/character, i got shivers from the look, the 眼神, that Nishikido Ryo had.
i immedately stopped the video and closed the window.
then, i went on to find out the plot before deciding to watch the drama.
it gave me even more chills.
and i went to watch the preview and interviews of the actors.
the preview of Nishikido Ryo's portion was creepy.
EVERY look, he gave was chilling. chilling.
in the individual interviews that followed each characters' introductory preview.
In the interview
Nishikido Ryo said that his character was really difficult to portray and act.
[He said these with a with a pair of warm eyes:):) luckily:):) i melted.:):)]
I think he did a really good job. I really had chills down my spine and goosebumps.
but
I do not think i'll watch the drama, at least at this moment.
Just like how i do not watch to complete 'One Litre of Tears'.
The drama is really quite real I feel, about the society today.
Maybe one day when i'm happy and optimistic not to allow anything to ruin my mood
I'll watch it.
Nishikido Ryo is an acting talent:):)
and. He's a Scorpio. Just like me.:)
one of the female leads is the lead of Nodame Cantabile with her hair cut really really short.
the story is supposed to be about the troubles of love life of the younger generation now,
the possible domestic violence that occurs behind closed doors.
the mere preview and a 'mistake' of me watching a mere few minutes of one episodes,
was enough to stop me from watching.
it looked really sad, and creepy.
the sad is not the type of 'One litre of Tears'
but a overwhelming chilling feeling.
Nishikido Ryo in 'One Litre of Tears' was the boy who loved the lead actress so much despite of her incurable disease.
but.
in Last Friend(s) Nishikido Ryo plays the boyfriend who loved his girlfriend (one of the female leads) and initiated the co-habitation with her. Then, an over-friendly sms from fellow female friend (nodame cantabile's lead actress), led him to misunderstand his girlfriend.
Then, due to the jealousy ignited, too much love, over-possessiveness,
he snapped and the violence started.
When i watch that one episode because the 'screen capture'of that particular episode had Nishikido Ryo, then after i saw the one scene with him inside with out knowing the plot/character, i got shivers from the look, the 眼神, that Nishikido Ryo had.
i immedately stopped the video and closed the window.
then, i went on to find out the plot before deciding to watch the drama.
it gave me even more chills.
and i went to watch the preview and interviews of the actors.
the preview of Nishikido Ryo's portion was creepy.
EVERY look, he gave was chilling. chilling.
in the individual interviews that followed each characters' introductory preview.
In the interview
Nishikido Ryo said that his character was really difficult to portray and act.
[He said these with a with a pair of warm eyes:):) luckily:):) i melted.:):)]
I think he did a really good job. I really had chills down my spine and goosebumps.
but
I do not think i'll watch the drama, at least at this moment.
Just like how i do not watch to complete 'One Litre of Tears'.
The drama is really quite real I feel, about the society today.
Maybe one day when i'm happy and optimistic not to allow anything to ruin my mood
I'll watch it.
Nishikido Ryo is an acting talent:):)
and. He's a Scorpio. Just like me.:)
10:46 PM
sometimes i really wish she could snap out of it
i really wanna shake her real hard and give her two tight slaps and go
&^%$#@ %$#@
7:25 PM
Saturday, May 10, 2008
oh my gg.
cuz its the holidays already
so my mind is preoccupied with stuff
like..
hua chi things
OOoo!! happy birthday mama!
nishikido ryo-kun is omg theeeeeeeee
whoo~~
he's mine.
heh heh
so gross.
i think i'm the only one around not out of these kinds of obsessions
hurhur.
but he is really..
:):)
1:33 AM
Thursday, May 08, 2008
i'm totally piii pii -ed out.
tired tired tired tired
nishikido ryo is totally whoo~~ :):)
kansai dialect rocks!! :):)
10:35 PM
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
omg omg omg
please please dont let it drop below a three
please please dont let it be below a C
please please dont let it become impossible for me to go
Please.
ah pu neh neh is really quite nice:)
11:50 PM
Friday, May 02, 2008
car shrimp:):)
KAT-TUN
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i like living in my own world:)
you know sometimes when u go out with or with that particular someone,
you tend to talk stuff that haha you'll never think of speaking in a big group.
haha..
today me and kai's studying session became 'abt our future' session:)
and i enjoyed it:) everytime we would have the small positive thinkning talk:):)
haha and w/o fail we'll talk about our future.. after graduation, during career build up, and the family we'll set up next time.
hurhur:) i guess it's the age ya:)
haha.. like my mum said to me,
'ba zi dou mei you yi pie'
haha aiya it applies to me only..
hhahaa.
KAI's a GOOD COOK!!!!!
DINNERRR PARTYYYY
today i'm in a good moodddd:)
I'm glad that you liked it!!:)
and although there were some you had already but!
the stuff behind are the main things right:)
let's all work hard and towards a brighter future!
:):)
i wanna retire in new zealand.
KAT-TUN
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
i like living in my own world:)
you know sometimes when u go out with or with that particular someone,
you tend to talk stuff that haha you'll never think of speaking in a big group.
haha..
today me and kai's studying session became 'abt our future' session:)
and i enjoyed it:) everytime we would have the small positive thinkning talk:):)
haha and w/o fail we'll talk about our future.. after graduation, during career build up, and the family we'll set up next time.
hurhur:) i guess it's the age ya:)
haha.. like my mum said to me,
'ba zi dou mei you yi pie'
haha aiya it applies to me only..
hhahaa.
KAI's a GOOD COOK!!!!!
DINNERRR PARTYYYY
today i'm in a good moodddd:)
I'm glad that you liked it!!:)
and although there were some you had already but!
the stuff behind are the main things right:)
let's all work hard and towards a brighter future!
:):)
i wanna retire in new zealand.
10:50 PM