Sunday, February 22, 2009
oh my tian. my headache.
everytime it comes i get excruciating migraines. urgh. shit the hormones.
and then i get mood swings up and down up and down.
and get cheesed off even easier then normal.
yesterday went out with wq to get her party stuff!;)
and i just ate and ate non stop. as wq bought stuff.
her party sounds fun:) cant wait to go there and see the long lost classmates of mine!
i cant stand some people.
seriously. i told yan before. only when i am talking about this particular group of people right
i get so bitchy. i get so filled with frustration and irritation.
they are too ky.
9:42 AM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
ooh! my previous post was post no. 300!! and shucks! such a depressing one!
bleah..
so i decided to top it up with this:::: :) omg.. the ring that i have always always talked abt!!
Cartier's Declaration. (uuuwaauuahh love the name as weeeellll:))))
omg. love the setting of the diamondddddd:) hahha a bit ttooo early.
11:28 PM
sometimes. u think abt it. humans are really not to be trusted
take for example myself today.
i had a very rather selfish thought.
but then again.
sometimes i do feel people do take advantage.
so it really is rather stupid to let them do it.
but sometimes. to make life easier... silence is a better option.
which den will accumulate unhappiness.
which eventually spoil relations.
i really would just want to hold on to my morals
so i abandoned that selfish thought.
i want to learn to give.
but just worry one day the situation of overgiving.
or to put it more bluntly and notsofakely the situation of not recieving back, due to the demand more than the supply.
because i am definitely not a selfless person.
such contradiction.
whatever it is
i shall hold on to a clear conscience at the very minimum.
whether i am stingy generous spendthrift scrooge.
i shall try to maintain my clear conscience of not taking advantage of others.
i always thought abt how come it is always a good friendship, easy , smooth flowing friendship in the beginning.. and then it gets harder as we get to know each better. it gets harder to maintain.
cuz in the beginning we had no idea abt one another. everything interesting. fresh.
most importantly that people make friends, hangout, on the occasion, spotaneous and not because of other "things". this is one that i really care about.
sometimes after meeting with some people, i leave feeling otherwise.
the vibes. the "inaccurate" hunches.
yea. i do have such feelings sometimes with the people around me.
i do grumble abt it.
but then, who am i
who am i. i am a nobody, i shouldn't judge in such a way.
but hey in another angle.
i am judging in my own court.
i cant force another person to accept my verdict if they dont want to.
it is my own personal verdict right in my personal mind.
that is my rights to my brain. my thoughts. that no one is suppose to question and can question.
10:45 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
hahah half an hour is all i need to check all my relevant websites and do all my updates..
hahah.. so quick.
yesterday although i went home at 9.. i was freakin tired.
slept till i couldnt wake up this morning!!
although i slept at like 12?..
before i slept i watched this show called the flower shop with no roses.
it was a rather moving story..
and the music of the show probably played a huge part.
i'll try to catch it again next week!:)
yesterday was valentines'!
haha i wouldnt say it was the "funnest" valentines'
but yesterday was certainly heartwarming:)
haha although we didnt do much but have lunch and movie and shopping..
but the fuzzy feeling was there.:)
i seriously cant make up my mind abt the dresss!! urgh!
and the table who stared and stared!
omg wth.
didnt ur parents teach u not to stare too much? its rude.
but oh. ur parents stared even more.
wuah.. wat a family. wonder whether they will get depression when they get old.
since eyesight is bound to deteoriate as humans age.
oh and. i seriously am going too deep into materialistic stuff..
its like drugs u know
hahha
i am broke.
9:41 AM
Thursday, February 05, 2009
human's living worth
for whom does one live for.
oneself
one's family
one's loved ones
material luxury.
name
fame
tears
laughter
nothing
back to oneself.
10:14 PM