Monday, October 29, 2007
i never knew it would be so difficult.
i really hate headaches
they make me weird and short tempered.
my head is going to explode
7:47 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Piano
Everyday
Speaking
10:43 PM
the days to the end of the year is becoming less.
soon within the next week it'll be november.
that's really quick.
very very quick.
why does time this year feel so unreal.
:(
i really really need to find an interest in something and be insistent on it.
ah. confused in a maze.
if studying was so easy. everyone could have done it.
but obviously not everyone has done it.
the scholars made it look simple.
hmm..
i probably lost to myself.
xiao shi liao liao da wei bi jia.
this is totally true.
the disappointment the laziness
my eyes are closing.
school is scarey.
the people are worse then i thought
why does it have to start all over again
why do i have to keep making friends maintaining frenship and smile.
since when did i start to find smiling tiring.
even laughing is tiring.
hmm.
hmm.
since when i stopped smiling and laughing when i mean it.
when i laugh at a particular tv programme, i find it amazing!
and memories of the past when i laughed comes back.
but then i find them embrassing.
the moments that i laughed embarassing
since i know it brought me so much trouble or discomfort to others
i really do not need another person to remind me about it.
i really should find a doctor ya.
find a doctor to ask whether there's a way to reduce loudness..
AHHH i am going mad i am going mad.
SHIT ASS. BLOODY SHIT ASS. REALLY BLOODY BLOODY SHIT ASS.
1:32 AM
Thursday, October 25, 2007
lalala :)
kimi's world champ!:) yays!! although i missed the most impt deciding match BUT:) never mind i've got angeline dear to update me!! haha i really cant stay till like 2 to watch. i swear i'll fall asleep not only tehn the whole of next day too! hahah:)
kimi kimi kimi:) yay! :) i aint a hardcore fan BUT neh mind:)
supa uba liek the way how kimi always manage to climb from bottom to podium:) never giving up and never succumbing to the pressure cars behind give!:) and that same ICEMAN expression!! whether on the 1st 2nd or 3rd:)
heh heh with exception to the brazilian match.. ANGELINE went ga ga over kimi's WIDE WIDE GRIN!!! heh heh me too la huh:)from the newspaper heh heh
i love to talk. :)
talking makes me happy!:)
cuz i dont need to think words just spill out:)
THANK YOU for giving me a BIG BIG voice!:) and a 'workable' mouth:)
11:02 PM
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
i'm really really tired nowadays
for no apparent reasons.
i dont do work
i watch tv all day
i dont help
i dont do anything
but i all i feel is tiredness.
hmm..
there were so many nights i wished i couldjust sleepand not spring up in the middle of the night due to somebody calling me
there were so many nights i wished for a silent dream
there were so many nights i wished i would never wake up
and that the mornings never came.
maybe it'll come true one day
it has to come true one day.
dont tell me this wish of mine this puny wish of mine cant even be carried out by me
this little mini wish of mine cant be granted due to some bloody restraint
how would it feel
how would it feel to be all alone.
no
it wont be good definitely
i really really love my mum and dad loads and loads.
i'll do anything in the world to make both og them happy together.
anything anything in the world even it meant sacrificing.
ignore me.
just ignoreme
continue to ignore me
i need to keep myself in m senses.
when can i speak to someone about it
and not just get fake superficial answers
or harsh criticism and scoldings for it
no man
a's wasnt the hardest
uni isnt the most fun time
i really hate it
i loathe the sight of nus
i loathe the sight of anyone there
i cant believe u said that
to think i respected
i think seems like there aint anyone left
there aint
if u cant even trust ur family who can u trust.
tell me who.
12:23 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
it's a wonder right
a wonder how life can change in a year.
how different u can feel about a person within a yr
how family relations can change so dramatically in a yr
how attitude towards life have taken a turn in a year.
12:02 PM
Monday, October 08, 2007
hehe i'm like totally hooked on facebook. lalal.. :) fun fun poke poke poke
my gawd so the childish..
now is like lit lect break and i'm dying cuz there's like linear algebra mid sem test late like directly afterlit an dhere falling asleep.
watchd too much tv yesterday ah... hhehee.. feng da xi.
hhhaa
i doubt anyone can get my random stuff hahha..
lala.. awaiting death for linear alegbra and really hope i passed my calculus and and socio this thurss... ah ah ah. omg the yr is passing damn the fast... shitzz.z..
hahha i cannot wait for chitty chitty bang bang... and and dubai! hahha 2 weks eh.. oh my gawds.. haha i think it like one of th elongest travel i am gonna have...
i'm saving money:) den next yr can go meet xy in aus
hahha dont ccare whether she invite me or not.. aiya gotta get away from singapore..
math math math...
hahha although i still watch tv like from when i get home to sleep.. but HEY
at least i take efort to do my tutorials right
ahaha DURING STATS lecture.. hhaha..
my god if i dont score for stats i noe why..cuz like mon lect spent doing linear tut and thurs lect spent doing calculus tut..
i like prof chan:) heheh he's nice.
oh but he teaches calculus.
5:03 PM
