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Thursday, September 24, 2009

i thought i was finding my way.
I thought i saw the light.
It turned out to be a lie.
I feel detached.
With everything, and just alone.
Cuz i no longer have energy to live back how i did.
And i also have no more confidence living as how i did before everything occurred...
Pathetic...


9:14 PM

iroirona koto ga atta..
It has been confirmed that i cant get tickets for the arashi concert...
Kyun.. the disappointment is unspeakable.
i know i have been quite mean to some people and that this is probably my retribution..
But yea.. i have had a good life.. And i should have no complaints..
I am really thankful for the people around me.. And the life i have been given.. ... i forget that there are other things moreimportant then wat i want.. And that actually arasho is a waste of time.. Unless they are earning money for me.. But i have not change my thought of getting masters in japan..
I have to work really hard now huh.. Haha.hai.. Ganbarimasu... Aruhi..zettai...mieru...


12:31 PM


Thursday, September 17, 2009

sadness sorrow and emptiness
the yearning and earning the sucess
The life the laziness the worth

I can never be determined enough. I can never be successful. I should have never been.

I want life the easy way. With only saying 'i want's. I can only think life the easy way. I have only lived life the easy way.


8:49 PM


Wednesday, September 09, 2009

yay! Nee chan is coming:) but i will be rather busy fighting the demons of stats and laziness...
So gross...
because i didn't check my email, i missed diaki kun's mail about his transit...
Everything is not going well.. I feel like dying and its all thanks to my laziness for not listening in class and also my stupidity.
I really loathe it why did i choose it just for its name why did i choose it based on my superficial wants. I should based on my interest. Ah. I hate my tardiness i hate myself. Cant wait to end.


2:13 PM


Sunday, September 06, 2009

yesterday night i had a really good dream.
but yea i know its impossible.
and having that dream and waking up from it feels so sad that i can feel my chest scrunching up.
everytime i want something so badly and did so much to get it, i dont.


9:53 AM


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