Thursday, June 21, 2007
lallaa...
i officially announce myself to be evil.
hahah evil huihui.
:)
hehe.
somehow a smile or a grin creeps up on me when i read about how much u are suffering.
suffering like me last year.
haha although i am not surprised that the puny brain of yours will be unable to think back and relate to how i felt last year, i'm jus glad. i'm just glad that u've had a taste of it.
mine was worse.
mine was 'a' levels.
urs?. haha.
watever.
the thought of the disadvantage i was in with the other 7 as compared to the whole cohort just gets me boiling.
haha.
haha.
haha.
i smile.
for the sake of smiling.
as i said.
i'm not that stupid to show it right out.
becuz i noe i got to be beside, somewhere near.
to enjoy.
to enjoy the ugliness in human character.
in me and you.
4:30 PM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
really.
the feeling of swollen eyes sucks.
and when u see someone with swollen eyes there can only be like...3,..4...countable reasons ah.
like sensitive eyes
like water retention
like flu bug
like eye infection
like laser surgery
like due to emotions.
i like my little spot by the window.
it's my little spot.
how i wished i would have such a little spot.
lying there makes me think.
looking up at the sky from the blurred panes above
makes me think
isn't good to think.
think things through.
explain to yourself why things had gone right. gone wrong.
haha.
old woman.
huihui's destiny.
like usual i'm afraid she'll shun.
but huihui cannot afford to run away.
she has to learn.
learn to face up to mistakes.
accept mistakes.
and know that she'll never be able to do some stuff.
face it.
heard cheryl sing yesterday:) YAY!:)
11:09 PM
Saturday, June 16, 2007
i am seriously such a retard.
i cant believe it
wat the hell.
AH!
please let school start soon!
so that i wouldnt be thnking about rubbish stuff.
argh! sucks eh.
12:39 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
harpi birfdae KATHY lee :) haha.
sigh they never fail to make me feel out of the picture.
they did it last when they stole my whole life.
like i think like i'm weird.
they think i'm weird i think.
hahah.
is huihui weird?
haha. erns.
dunno.
i'm seriously not in a mood to like haha.
but just got to type haha. like its out of habit
or just scared to show that it bothers me.
trying to shrug watver off.
wth.
so irritated.
wat's wrong with me.
i just got to be so bothered abt how some view me.
i cant dont care.
i really cant figure out wat they're thinking.
hmm.. maybe the frequency is different.
but i always felt that no matter how different the culture the family the school the upbringing the interests the capabilities the favourites.
pple will be able to find smthg somewhere to at least be able to smile at each other.
i see the smile.
but that's only when we meet face to face.
other than that the tone is neither cold or none at all. like i'm some busybody barging and asking watever that is not supposed to be my business.
AHH.
i feel so much more comfortable writing everything down or else i would have gotten like depression.
nonetheless ahhaha
i'm really glad to have frens that i can be like heart to heart with
:) the crazy pple.:) heheh
KAI!! i miss talking to you:)
hahah..
seems like i just got to be thankful for these bunch.
and ignore those that probably didnt even consider me...
grow up ya. and realise wat i have realised.
just like wat huisi always talk to me about.
it may have took me just few months to look back how childish and embarrassing my thinking and actions had been.
but it may take a yr few yrs or forever a lifetime to be able to look back and reflect realise wat they had inflicted on others.
sigh
wat a old woman i am.
old old old old woman.
i think too much rubbish.
maybe if i had put the thinking to use last yr.
i wouldnt have ended up with three bs
i would have stretched my ability.
i was too engrossed with smthg that was not worth it
i conclude that any overseas trip
must be for holiday cause and nothing else to be 250% enjoyable from the very start of plan to the end of unpacking and reminiscing the days.
11:33 PM
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
the sudden urge to cry.
the mistaken statements.
the misunderstood actions.
the unexplainable emotions.
sigh all of a sudden i thought of the day that i had my math exam last yr one of the afternoons.
some how.
i miss school i miss exams i miss my class i miss my classmates i miss my friends.
i miss having something to work for work agianst.
10:08 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
lalala...
i was feeling a teeny weeny bit of emoness like 5 mins ago.
now.
:)
thanks to a buddy. i'm feeling fine
and happy abt myself.:)
thanks buddy!
:)
6:20 PM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
my little piece of sky.
my little piece of night.
my little piece of thought.
my little piece of heart.
i slept by the window as always.
yesterday night was especially clear.
the moon was especially bright.
i stared at it.
stared and stared.
who in the other half of the world would be sharing it with me.
the moon was so bright.
i was basking in moonlight,
basking in moonlight.
12:31 AM
