Sunday, February 25, 2007
hmm...
hmm...
yesterday had a good talk with qin...
hehe.. huihui is damn bitchy,
luckily wq is forgetful haha...
today back to aspen to work...
all of a sudden i really realise and felt the difference of family, and the outside world.
my parents will never ask me to buy wat wat wat, do wat wat wat.
instead they ferry me here there everywhere.
that's off work.
during work i become the pair of running legs.
shiftng things here there everywhere.
buying food, coffee tea watever.
at some point it actually becomes kinda degrading, to me, to my character and intergrity.
because i'm no longer doing these favours out of goodwill and willingly,
instead it becmes part of my job, responsiblity and doing it for the sake, for the sake of not offending the top.
sigh
treated like royalty at home,
stepped on as if there's no tomorrow at work.
1:48 PM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
oh my gosh.. hehhee...
my sis and bro and my mum thinks i'm mad... but hehe.. he's super duper good looking...
hahaha...
hehe watched it like 6 times... and noe the 7th, wasting electricity ah... hahaha watever
the only entertainment now... hehhee..
i miss school school school:)
but i so dont want to go back there...
surprising the most 'relaxed' and least tense of the yr was in the midst of a levels..
not the beginning whenn i''m worried abt preparation,
not the end when i'm fearing ...
but in the midst that week or two when all i have to worry is studying and my future.
but it is also theese 2 weeks that i realise the regrets i might have given myself by my misplace of priorities.
hahah
i think wq kai phong louie phy or even dawn cant stand how much i talk abt... even now.
aiya.
no matter how much i nag or grumble abt it now will not change anything.
it was meant to be liek that.
i think if given a choice i wld still stick to as my choice of cca.
i think almost all my entries in this blog is abt it.
so gross how my life have grown to revolve ard it even till now.
it has taught me lots of things not just given me nightmares and horror hrs...
i so can tolerate stress now.
but i'll continue to avoid pple that scare me hahha.. as i see my self doing it in office.
argh.
hahaha.
aiya.
aiya.
sigh.
i really should stop buying shoes.
i sigh oh so often nowadays as compared to when i only bought shoes once or twice a yr.
damn tired ah... cant wait to get my new lap top for uni.
i think it's the only thing i'm looking forward to abt going to uni.
aiya.
really hope i can get into uni first k!!
er.. talking to myself again. so disgusting. hahaha.
~hehe.. wu zun is uper good lookin... hahhaha so are the rest of Farenhiet(IS that how we spell it? dun care la) ahhaa..
~huihui
8:13 PM
oh my gosh.. hehhee...
my sis and bro and my mum thinks i'm mad... but hehe.. he's super duper good looking...
hahaha...
hehe watched it like 6 times... and noe the 7th, wasting electricity ah... hahaha watever
the only entertainment now... hehhee..
i miss school school school:)
but i so dont want to go back there...
surprising the most 'relaxed' and least tense of the yr was in the midst of a levels..
not the beginning whenn i''m worried abt preparation,
not the end when i'm fearing ...
but in the midst that week or two when all i have to worry is studying and my future.
but it is also theese 2 weeks that i realise the regrets i might have given myself by my misplace of priorities.
hahah
i think wq kai phong louie phy or even dawn cant stand how much i talk abt... even now.
aiya.
no matter how much i nag or grumble abt it now will not change anything.
it was meant to be liek that.
i think if given a choice i wld still stick to as my choice of cca.
i think almost all my entries in this blog is abt it.
so gross how my life have grown to revolve ard it even till now.
it has taught me lots of things not just given me nightmares and horror hrs...
i so can tolerate stress now.
but i'll continue to avoid pple that scare me hahha.. as i see my self doing it in office.
argh.
hahaha.
aiya.
aiya.
sigh.
i really should stop buying shoes.
i sigh oh so often nowadays as compared to when i only bought shoes once or twice a yr.
damn tired ah... cant wait to get my new lap top for uni.
i think it's the only thing i'm looking forward to abt going to uni.
aiya.
really hope i can get into uni first k!!
er.. talking to myself again. so disgusting. hahaha.
~hehe.. wu zun is uper good lookin... hahhaha so are the rest of Farenhiet(IS that how we spell it? dun care la) ahhaa..
~huihui
8:13 PM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
:) 8:47 am...
in office..
didn't know that i could access to blogger.. hehhe.. hope i dont get caught..:)
damn tired...
like anytime i'll just drop dead... haha...
results will be out soon...
hmm.. wat will happen if i cant get into uni.
i dont know.
i dont see another road for me.
during psle there were lousier schls
during o levels there were lousier schls too.
during a levels there is nothing but uni. no lousier anything.
so what will happen.
i hate to say i dont know.
i hate to make mistakes.
i have to be manipulated through out my life.
not that i dont like it.
not that i dont hate it.
i have to think about family dont i.
i do have to.
i always had the feeling that,
i must,
i have to,
leave my family to go furthur.
only when i leave my family
my school
my friends
only then when i'm alone
i can handle matters with accuracy and calmness.
only when i'm alone really alone,
i can think clearly of
what i want to be done,
who i want to be.
huh... what a absurd thinking.
what a absurd thinking.
8:47 AM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
i do not know..
maybe. maybe.
maybe. i'm just jealous of the fun and bond that they share.
maybe that's why i hate it and them and him so bloody much.
whatever.
results are out next two weeks.
wt.
gp freaks me out.
everything freaks me out.
hate it.
11:57 AM
i'm damn tired...:)
10:28 AM
