i just sent my mum off to the airport and is left all alone in my room now it all of a sudden seem so big. on the way back from the airport in the train. i sort of couldnt stop tearing so i had to put on a mask to hide it luckily everyone does it. it feels so bad. maybe if i was separated from her after getting used to her being around will be better i dont know but i am seriously glad she came. and seriously sorry i made her so tired. and unable to enjoy herself. today i walked back from the station. instead of taking the bus.. the wind was kind enough to not blow, unlike the previous days.. sotoday was exceptionally warm when i was walking home just now. omg please let school start soon so i can take my mind off. now i look around the room and all i see is images of her around.. at the fish store too. i couldnt buy her favouritebread cuz i was rushing home today.. and she couldnt see the sakuras... i didnt think i would mind so much.. please dont let me regret my decision to study out alone.
7:25 PM
Monday, March 23, 2009
i almost broke down today as expected. at the bloody bank. i wanted to finish all my procedures today and almost did then the bank who held me up told me that they wont do it for me.. only other banks:( and then before that when i was looking for the reccomended bank instead of this bloody one.. no one wanted to help me. just point out the directions:( or rather. i asked and the bloody woman just smiled and sorri-ed me and shoo-ed me away like i am asking for donations. :( and then lugging the luggage up flights of stairs is no kidding man. :(
yea i wanna come back in once peice but i am really super afraid that registering of courses in school next week will be a nightmare as well:(
other than that..ya. just a not very smooth first day i guess. i made my mother walk so many yuan-wang road:(
8:05 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
today i had a great dinner. hehe with a really rare arrangement. haha its rare even though we are friends.. haha twice in 2 weeks..:) somehow it feels heartwarming...:) although the stories are complicated!!!!:)
there are tonnes of things to do! omg.. finish my hw, pack my luggage pack my corner pack my room change money write stuff send stuff omg so many things and wow so quickkly in a blink of an eye it is time already.. ah.. i know who i am going miss who are those whose company i am going to miss. hahha even though it is only 4 months.. :) secret smile.
12:22 AM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
happy birthday chia hweee:)
today was quite a hectic day.. but a rathe rnormal.. filled with love day as well. just quality time spent with several good friends and family.
friends whom i do not need to hide that i am upset and disappointed that i cant watch a movie;) haha. and who are willing to do silly things like watching a superb movie right at the front row 90 cm away from the screen. haha. yea. we shall talk abt it 10 yrs down the road:)
i also attended a very important seminar abt studying the masters i am so set on. but now.. i cant decide between US and Japan. but wait.. haha i also have to be accepted first right. hahha i believe the experience will help me decide hopefully.
i read wq's blog post just now. and so i have a whole "heap" of feelings out. at first i thought i really wouldnt miss that badly.. since i have always been a rather detached or cold hearted person. but then i realise i really really am gonna miss some people.. because usually we spend too much time together.. ahhaha or rather i rely on them a tad bit too much. yea.. i hope our friendship can be kept just that way. preserved just that way. all all the way:) so mushy.. haha
nostalgia i guess. especially with family.
stronger bonds i guess. especially with friends.
I LOVE YOU'SSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!:) a huge kissssssss
p/s siao ah. dont know wats wrong with huihui only 4 months only wat like going forever like that. chey. haha:) - dont think this k!! i just realise 4 months may or may not be a short period.
2:46 AM
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
today i watched "Departures":):) it was sugokatta!!!:):) enjoyed it:) and feel that it has been narrated and filmed well. although we were absolutely sitting at the very first row of the fully filled cinema what an amazment:) after hearing the comment of my japanese classmate and watching the movie, i feel, for the first time that content of movie and the depth of understanding the message behind the plot and the scriptwriter's motive really differs with age or rather maturity. haha. at least i watched with friends who felt the same way as me:) the feeling of someone sharing the same thoughts as you of the message behind the lines as well and having the same emotions as you during the movie is such a comforting thing:) it is such a wet blanket when the people around, whether they are strangers or friends, dont share the same emotion journey. not that it is a must, just that I dont enjoy or cant fully focus on the movie just as much. but its not a must though.
yea but the movie was great. no wonder it won so many awards:)
ah! and i am totally flying all over the place!!! damn bloody busy and a lil worried mixed with excitment of the start of my exchange!!:) haha i hope everything will go ok! i dont need it to go well, but just smoothly please!:)
12:44 AM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
i realised my japanese level has been slipping!!! urgh!! too much monkeying and fangirling around!! ah!!
hehe. i have been stuck on this song for a real long time because i like the music and dance.. and yesterday i found a video report cut of the song!!:) they performed last yr in japan's national stadium situated in tokyo. the tonnnnneeeesss of people. i watched the continuation of the report, and the stadium could actually and was filled with 70,000 people. of course it could!! it was where is very first Asian city where olympics where heldddd!!! UUWUAHHHH SUUGOIIIIIIIIIIII that is dont know how many times of ours. seeing the video of the start of the concert in broad daylight was so grand!! i mean.. performing in front of soooo many people!! and it is not only singing man! its dancing talking and stage "gimmicks", shows and performances.
yea yea. i know i know. i am going on and on. precisely because i cant do it. that's why i am in awe right someone has to have something u dont have or cant have or is afraid to have, then you are attracted to that person right:)
10:17 PM
Sunday, March 01, 2009
omg. the number of birthday parties!!! not to mention the group of oneyr younger we have as friends!! next yr i am so gonna omg. ahhaha momo is so sweet to rmb when i am gg over and contact me!:) :) anywya i have tonnes to say but yet i cant say it all out. OH ! but this is a must: pink panther is really bad! omg. me and wq or rather me. slept like throughout the movie. hahah and i relaly can confirm that after drinking i seriously will be sleepy.
BON VOYAGE Xiao Yan Yuan:) take care and put on more layers!! its gonna be cold. dont try to be "i'm used to it" and then later fall sick. haha. and...
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ONG WEI QIN DARLING:) :)
1:09 PM
Fi- Fi-. C
to find a day where from then on
i would never need to lie again.
i really love vanilla.
for its straightforwardness
