Monday, March 31, 2008
dad just went back yesterday.
totally tired out.
even when i'm studying for my quiz i fell asleep.
which was really shocking.
it's week 11.
exams are in week 14.
congratulations.
i just got irritated just now.
i would really love to find relief with "team" work.
but everytime it NEVER fails to stress me out instead.
how i wish i could scream into the person face and
say
" HOW FREAKIN STUPID CAN YOU GET?!?!
WHY CANT YOU F-ING TAKE NOTE OF WHAT PEOPLE HAVE TOLD YOU TIME AND TIME AND TIME AGAIN?!?!?
WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND DONT?!?!
WHY WHY WHY?!?
ARE YOU THAT DENSE?!?!! "
thanks. you just made me a more hateful person.
9:28 PM
Friday, March 28, 2008
i was kinda pissed after watching this.
yea.. i know we speak Singlish, but...
every country has their own accent right
just as how american and british accents and pronounciation/grammer differ. :(
moreover english here is like chinese there.
i'm sure the chinese spoken is "mixed" too.
why should they laugh at our accent? :(
i dont see them laughing at the americans and brits
is it because we arent ang moh?
or maybe because our OWN government look down on us.
so. others too.
there are bound to be those who arent that educated.
even the educated feel comfortable in their certain slang/lang.
so wat's the point of gathering and the pointing of fingers.
what a disappointment of the people.
to talk to openly about another's country.
especially when they do come here and earn money
especially the artiste who come have concerts.
hmm.
maybe singaporeans are kinda complacent and easy to bully.
when they need patronage from us, they say
"i love singapore."
"the fans here are wonderful."
blah blah.
:(
sigh.
the ugliness of humanity.
and unfriendliness of people.
the low EQ as well.:(
i dont know whether to be upset or angry.
10:58 PM
Thursday, March 27, 2008
today we went to bishan to eaT:)
and yes..
the ang moh boss was NICEE:)
he treated us to TONNESS of food:):)
and dessert too!!
so cutezzzz!! haha
like kimizzzz
hahhaa
had fun on the bus too!!:) take photo take photo..
omg i swear the bus 154's uncle behind us got so irritated or scared that he overtook and made wq unable to tak ehis bus:( poor wq.. wondered if she's back..
actually wanted to sleep already.. but just decided to come here..
since i needed to update my pod as well...
yan.:)
i hope they really dont affect you:(
especially when both of u have been thru quite a lot.
study hard... but dont let it 'rot' there k.
the sooner solved and spoken the better:)
i lub yew:)
i realised how small my social circle actually is.
after being told off for being anti-social and loner and weird and every-day-stay-at-home.
but what to do.
i really think it really difficult for people to get along,
moreover i leave so quickly.
so quick that the memories dont stay.
:(
all of a sudden i'm feeling sad again for no apparent reason when i'm supposed to smile.:(
yesterday i was really upset.
very.
and yes..
the ang moh boss was NICEE:)
he treated us to TONNESS of food:):)
and dessert too!!
so cutezzzz!! haha
like kimizzzz
hahhaa
had fun on the bus too!!:) take photo take photo..
omg i swear the bus 154's uncle behind us got so irritated or scared that he overtook and made wq unable to tak ehis bus:( poor wq.. wondered if she's back..
actually wanted to sleep already.. but just decided to come here..
since i needed to update my pod as well...
yan.:)
i hope they really dont affect you:(
especially when both of u have been thru quite a lot.
study hard... but dont let it 'rot' there k.
the sooner solved and spoken the better:)
i lub yew:)
i realised how small my social circle actually is.
after being told off for being anti-social and loner and weird and every-day-stay-at-home.
but what to do.
i really think it really difficult for people to get along,
moreover i leave so quickly.
so quick that the memories dont stay.
:(
all of a sudden i'm feeling sad again for no apparent reason when i'm supposed to smile.:(
yesterday i was really upset.
very.
11:54 PM
Monday, March 24, 2008
recently i realised that differences really do grow.
i mean of course everyone of us would prefer or want different things at different times.
it would be super lucky if we get the same goal and aim.
differences are of course good sometimes
just as how some expected inflation rates are
(sorry, please let me revise my econs hehe i really need to pass hehe:))
expected differences are definitely good, only den we can learn different qualities and lessons from one another dont we.
however sometimes.
hyperinflation do occur.
differences grow so much that the distance between two hearts grow in proportion as well.
previously
i felt that real good friends dont really need that effort to keep the friendship at tat level
since i mean,
the 'good friend standard' has been reached right
haha...
but now i realise.
these frenships actually require even more care and effort in.
i'm starting to learning to put in.
maybe because i start to realise in uni
how difficult it is to create the same type of frenship that wa sso easily obtained in SC or CJ
so.
:)
moi dearest friends
huihui is learning..
trying hard..
:)
so, hopefully, eventually i'll come out of this learning tunnel
and be a better and more sincere person.
who would rather put in effort with human rather than teevee. haha.
:)
11:36 PM
Sunday, March 23, 2008
KIMI WONNZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz
LALALA
HE'll KEEP WINNINGGZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz
4:52 PM
Thursday, March 20, 2008
my nose is gonna drop off
my eyes are gonna pop out
i've been sneezing the whole day away.
so gross.
plus the cramps
i think my health is declining
maybe i'll die soon.
dont think i'll live past 25 or 30.
urgh.why do women have to suffer it.
shit damn it.
i hate it.
sneeze wheezes and cramps.
the best way to enjoy a holiday.
plus nagging
from the person that you thought would understand u the best.
totally. i hate it.
11:19 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2008
oh my freakin shit.
it's near the end of march.
and end of april is the freakin exams.
i'm so gonna die.
on a brighter note.
on a brighter note.
I MANAGED TO SOLVE MY PROGRAMMING QN!
omg omg omg
so excited.
all by myself!
omg omg omg omg
although i did like grossly for the test. but hurhur at least i manage to solve this one.
too doo
F1 HAS COMMENCED
whoo hoo~~
kimi kimi kimi kimi
although kimi has started off the season with an engine failure and at 16th position.
i believe. I BELIEVE. he'll do well.
WHOO HOO! get out of the way alonso. and hamiliton.
little hobbit.
lala.
the race is at 1230 today:( cannot watch cuz i'm working.
but it's alright there's always the website and and and and repeat telecast.
MY HANDSOME KIMI RAKK.
1:06 PM
Friday, March 14, 2008
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9:51 PM
Thursday, March 13, 2008
we are kinda afraid of losing many things right.
ok ok.
at least me.
there some that i am really really afraid of losing.
but i know there's definitely a day that i lose them.
be it, me leaving , or the 'things' leaving.
family is top of the list.
top top top.
of course my buddies too.
buddies buddies.
all i can do is TRY (family makes it difficult sometimes..- no. ALOT times.)
as much as possible
to love and cherish them.
i hope there's still time.
Mathematics. Statistics. is satisfying.
but.
huihui watches too much teevee to enjoy the satisfying feeling of being able to solve the qns.
random thought.
ok ok.
at least me.
there some that i am really really afraid of losing.
but i know there's definitely a day that i lose them.
be it, me leaving , or the 'things' leaving.
family is top of the list.
top top top.
of course my buddies too.
buddies buddies.
all i can do is TRY (family makes it difficult sometimes..- no. ALOT times.)
as much as possible
to love and cherish them.
i hope there's still time.
Mathematics. Statistics. is satisfying.
but.
huihui watches too much teevee to enjoy the satisfying feeling of being able to solve the qns.
random thought.
The 'love' of my life:) my cousin's darling son. my favourite favourite favourite nephew.
11:45 PM
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
it's easy to know people.
it's easy to become friends.
it's not that easy to become better friends.
it's difficult to become close friends.
it's damn bloody hard to get a best friend.
for me
i always like to have formulas and rules and expectations set for myself to carry out certain stuff, procedure, or to attain a particular aim.
maybe that's why it's kinda difficult for me to have close friends.
becuz i really got to admit.
i'm really weird and have the straightest thinking ever.
i always always set weird principles and rules for myself to follow
and of course
expecting others as well
which is
kinda
stupid to do.
it took me quite long to realise that. but. strangely enough,
old habits die hard dont they.
i have been reading blogs like quite often nowadays like the got-nothing-to-do-but-to-read-blogs xiao yan. haha.
:)
and everytime.
everytime. even if its just the previous day i read them, i'll have odd emotions.
hmm.. unexplainable ones. not exactly good nor bad.
of course, some people's just gives me shivers. and the sour sour feeling
but, that doesnt matter, because the person is not really in my circle.
the person just belongs to a group of people that i really would not want to meet until i have proven myself to be superior and that they have seen wrongly of me. (you know like those televison high school reunion kinda thing)
haha. yea. that's childish.
but it makes me feel better.
why compare yourself with others, is a rhetorical question i have been shooting back at my parents.
but truly, when life has no aim no motivation, it seems as though that's the only pushing hand.
whatever whatever.
some choose to cherish.
some choose not to.
i want to show those who chose not to, that they are wrong. and they'll regret it,
heart of vengence.
yes, i know.
but. i'm different. but. who's not.
i have been trying to be similar but what's the bloody use.
no difference. no change.
maybe one day maybe tommorrow!
when i read back this entry i might be embarassed by the immatureness, or stupidness.
or or just how come i dare to write these.
there are of course some people that never fail to bring a smile to my face.
be it offline messages, encouragements, birthdays, the cakes, dinners, lunchs or just that simple hug.
good friends are supposed to walk down the path,
the journey of life together. right?
(haha i wonder whether i'm wrong to think of that, and expect that.)
let's hope everyone of us would have someone to travel the journey with. :)
11:29 PM
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Nodame Cantabile:)
made me listen to the most amount of classical music in 1day
full classical pieces.
maybe tv dramas aint that superficial afterall:)
smile.
it just brings back memories from choir days with mr t vividly in picture.
it no longer feels..
it feels more like regret.
regret that i didnt throw it all out and truely enjoy the atmosphere the surrounding
yet i was affected by stupid stuff like teachers and students.
i didnt enjoy that last most important highest level of competition that i have ever reacher.
i want to go back there one day alone.
to look carefully at that hall that we performed and the hall where we sat at to listen
and the charles bridge that we cross so many times
and the trams where i got scolded by grumpy old ladies.
and so many so many more.
tmr i've got an econs test and the day after tmr i have a programming test
probability assgn is also due tmr
and here i am typing
aimless
my life as always been aimless and i havent been able to achieve anything at anywhere.
all i do is whine
whine like a person with a small asshole.
hurhur pardon the language
just abit too absorbed.
yays.
let's go!
12:47 AM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
lala..
yays! i'm glad wq enjoyed her bdae:):)
it was fun.. nauseating and filled with giddiness.
i've got no photos:(
never mind
as long as we have bbq
we can officially be a bbq club.
becuz
every celebration we have would have a bbq
ya
becuz with BEEBEEKEW
it wouldnt be one:)
la la la.
next birthdays
mum's yan's and phong's
i think we can open a party planner company already.
yays! i'm glad wq enjoyed her bdae:):)
it was fun.. nauseating and filled with giddiness.
i've got no photos:(
never mind
as long as we have bbq
we can officially be a bbq club.
becuz
every celebration we have would have a bbq
ya
becuz with BEEBEEKEW
it wouldnt be one:)
la la la.
next birthdays
mum's yan's and phong's
i think we can open a party planner company already.
nope! we didnt have these. ;) huihui just found them pretty:)
2:47 PM