Monday, September 18, 2006
wonderful. examination periods are jus wonderful. isn't it?
bleah.
changed new skin ya.. hmm actually it's too pink.. heh heh huihui doesnt really wear pink u see.
she uploaded some music on her blog too.
if u want click etc. and u can find the music. BUT.
u cannot navigate away from etc. it'll stop.
only one song will be able to play if u click on the rest of the links...
there's this pink with purple buttons player BELOW etc.
it only has bon jovi's u give love a bad name.
haha actually watever.
i dont really care.
i blog to be happy.
just like how i happy i am to study in ann's house:) hehe with the xiao yan too. hurhur
ann. really. ur parent are nice. ur house cosy.
hmm. i thought i've improved. as in work.
but. prelims seems to have proved me wrong.
i seem. unprepared still.
tell me.
is it really to far a dream to enter medicine.
i'm really not working hard enough.
i hate it. i hate myself.
see even now i cant pull my self away from blogging and do chem paper 3.
shit.
i hate afternoon papers.
i cant focus.
i cant finish my papers.
how.
time's running out.
my health is killing me too.
the constant headaches, back aches, neck aches, knee pain, and super swollen puffy eyes.
watever.. headaches are the worst followed by eyes so swollen it feels like i've cried the whole day.
strong medicine is a good show.
produced by whoopi goldberg.
the actors and actresses sub plots and plots are totally in tune with one another.
the hippo oath seems to be really carried out in this show.
i dont know. i cant do a post medical degree. it's too much time, too much money.
my parents have a life. i cant afford to take away the life they are supposed to have. i'm not supposed to take away the privileges reserved for my brothers.
money. money. money.
how are my brothers gonna continue good studies if i use up all the money.
i am so fucking nconsiderate.
forget it.
maybe i should never have dreams. i never should have dreams.
dreams will always be dreams.
they give us hope.
but.
tell huihui.
when does it come true with just a wish, without a price.
the price tag to pay to pursue my medicine dream is huge. too huge. too huge that i feel that it'll reduce my family to rags.
my family is my life.
they are all i have.
they are all i wanna give.
Friends come and go or stay.
we choose them.
but.
Family will always be family.
we cant choose them.
we cant make them go away or stay.
they are the only ones worth sticking our faces into watever shit there is.
they are the only ones worth swallowing the tears for.
some true friends are worth it too.
i dont think love is worth it.
at least it hasn't proven itself to be.
~tata. enjoy life. u never noe when it's gonna end.
i may say hate and dislike and sad all the time.
but i look around. i am a happy girl. with a great family. and true friends
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