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Friday, July 07, 2006

haiz.. today is 070706 wasn't it supposed to be a lucky day?.. ok las huh.. schl was quite ok.. coir today was great!!!:) wah... :) i'm grinning from ear to ear!!!:) ohoh.. but one headache is coming up.. our auditon... its recording our individual singing for mr. t kinda worried.. how's?.. asked cheryl to help.. hopefully she can SAVEEEE MMEEEEEEE!!!

yesterday went out with kai and phong took neoprints!! haha we had no time limit to decorate the photos.. so we decorated till like kai was so tired she din want to decorate anymore.. so farni.. we looked SO happy in the photos.. haha i believe we reaaly were at that moment.. i loved the neoprints.. so much that i scanned it into the com and ask my bro to crop the pics out one by one hur hur THANKS SHENG!:) i love you.

today went out with some choir pple.. hurhur... celine was so cute she and Buns... hurhur...

everything was fine till i got home...
everything was fine till my dad comes back...
everything was fine till my dad finishes his dinner and returns to the bedroom to discuss with my mum abt my sis...
everything was fine till they talk abt her new uni camp...
everything was fine till they talk abt how the girls in teams had to wear bikini and jump into the water to earn points for the team...
everything was fine till i said i'd never do that...
everything was fine till my mum ask me not to be childish...
everything was fine till my mum said that's for the team, it's team spirit...

Then, we argued.
Then, i said i no longer wanna go uni.
Then, i said i no longer wanna study.
Then, i said i wanna just work in mac's.
Then, i said i'm not as cheap as that.
Then, i said no one would want to see me in bikini.
Then, i stopped talking.
Then, i started to tear.
Then, i quickly wiped them away.
Then... my mum said:" Send her for counselling. she needs it."

My heart breaks.
My hands start to type msn messages to phong.
My hands start to write this entry.
My eyes start to tear again...
My mind starts to think.

I think: Phong understands? Phong understands.
I think: Did Shou really feel cared by me as Phong said? Shou did.
I think: I felt so loved and cared yesterday with Phong and Kai. Yep, i really did.
I think: Why doesn't my parents love me as much as my sister? I do not know.
I think: Am I here to be laughed at by people? I do not know.
I think: Is it a sin to be fat? I do not want to know.
I think: Am I being punished for being fat? I do not want to know.
I think: Am I tired, giving up? Maybe.
I think: Do I deserve to be in existence? Maybe not.
I think: Do I understand my family? Not Really.
I think: Do I understand my friends? Maybe not.
I think: Do I understand myself? An immediate No.

i'm tired. do not feel like writing any more. i'm this unpredictable, this i-want-it-this-way-means-i-want-it.

I just want to thank phong for talking me to me now on msn and also her for telling me that shou luurrvvess me. haha. i love her too:)
I just want to thank shou for telling phong that she's really glad to have me as a friend.
I just want to thank Kai for caring for me and encouraging me all the time. Thanks dear.
I just want to thank Auddie, Dawn, Phy, Louie, for encouraging me in all different methods- thru letters, tags, a simple hug and a simple pat on the back.
I just want to thank my parents for bringing me up for so many years. I'll pay back. Double.

I just want to thank you for reading till here. Thank you~


9:52 PM


Fi- Fi-. C
to find a day where from then on
i would never need to lie again.

i really love vanilla.
for its straightforwardness

.mushiness with reality.

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