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Monday, June 26, 2006

Have we ever thought what if this didn't happen, what if i had done this?
Have we ever thought what if we didn't think of the what ifs?
Have we ever thought whether our what ifs have hurt somebody?
Have we ever thought of how many what ifs we had said?




Cheerful What ifs

What if my parents win 6 different lotteries tomorrow?
What if my dream jobs knock on my door tomorrow?
What if i found someone who loves me dearly?
What if i needn't study?
What if i scored straight 'A's?
What if i get into medical school?
What if i can tour around the world?
What if i can go prague?
What if i win the CCA achievement award?
What if i can lose ALL the fats and be skin and bones?
What if i can change all the discrimination about being fat?


What if i hadn't think of these what ifs?
I'll be happy.



Scarey What ifs

What if i meet with a terrorist attack like now?
What if i fly out of a bus?
What if i meet with a car accident?
What if the glass that i'm leaning on just gives away?
What if i roll down the stairs?
What if i lose my senses?
What if i fail to get married?
What if i fail to get a boyfriend?
What if i fail my exams?
What if i fall sick and dont wake up?
What if my family and friends leave me?


What if i hadn't think of these what ifs?
I'll be happy.



Sad What ifs

What if i have talked to grandma more?
What if i had taken the IC back?
What if i just didn't go?
What if i flunked whatever i did?
What if i lose goals in life?
What if i lose hope in life?
What if i made more friends?
What if i wasn't so bad tempered?
What if i could accept criticism?
What if i could accept mockery?
What if i had a true childhood friend?


What if i hadn't think of these what ifs?
I'll be happy.



I cant say that i have not stepped out of shadows and regrets of my life. BECAUSE i believe that only with sorrows, shadows, anger, fustrations, regrets, we'll know when are the true happy moments and when... are just moments of superficial thrill moments. I won't say encouraging words like 'You can do it i know you can!' here. because this is where i'm gonna let, whatever i find hard to say, out here. When i can't do it, i can't i know where i stand- very clearly.

What if i had the courage?
What if i hadn't said everything out?
What if you are irritated by my emo-ness?
What if i told you i didn't care....

What if i told you DO care?
What if i told you i'm just tired?

What if i told i'm real thankful that you finished reading this entry?

Thank you- Very much.


8:53 PM


Fi- Fi-. C
to find a day where from then on
i would never need to lie again.

i really love vanilla.
for its straightforwardness

.mushiness with reality.

Irreplacable , unerasable memories.
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